C&C (DAY 2)

C&C
Caden,
It was the sweetest thing today to hear you ask Grammy and Bump for a new bike so you could go play with your "new friends" outside. You always watch the little boys ride their bikes in the cove & do tricks on their bike ramp almost everyday but now you are getting to be a big boy so you can join in. Thankfully you are the sweetest but genuine little guy that tomorrow you will have a bike sitting at the bottom of the stairs. I think your little sweet voice got to us. I cant wait to see your excitement.
We had a great day today though. We stayed out in the front yard for about 3 hours today doing all kinds of different things. You rode your monster jeep and every other car you have in the garage. You also helped me with yard work since you are such a You great helper but I think you liked playing in the sprinkler a little more.

Cam,
I love seeing you try to be like a big boy ! You really do things that make me so happy. I love watching you discover & understand things every single day. Every week you are learning something new to say to me.
Cam you ran the whole backyard today. You figure out how to blow the bubble gun & fill up the whole backyard with lots of bubbles. That really made you happy that you could do that & we Caden and I had fun chasing them. You love being outside no matter what the weather is for that i love you makes that makes me laugh to see you dont care you just want to have fun out there.

"C&C " Starting Something New

Boys,

I am writing these messages title C&C to you to try and let you now how much I love you so one day when you are older and much wiser than ol' mom and dad & you think we don’t care I want you to read the days when you taught me to love you the most. plus it will be neat to look back on the days that your mom holds so close & will be talking about forever. This is why I care SO much:



"C&C"



Dear Caden,

I cant even begin to tell you how much I love you. You came into my life December 22, 2005 and changed it forever & I could never thank you enough. Holding you was the most amazing & indescribable feeling. You have the sweetest soul . Caden you are just a natural at loving, which is something I wish & hope I can be like someday. You teach me so much with your sweet spirit.
Like today ( May12, 2010) you said:

“Mommy I think you are just such a cute girl. You are beautiful to me & I love you marry me”

Caden, you made my day so easy by your sweet words. Thank you for being so kind at 4 years old. You make my stay at home job look so good.
If I didn’t tell you today, I love you soooo much!!!! We has a great time today picking daddy up from the airport from Mexico- You played every type of game you could think of in your head.




Dear Cam Cam,

When I think of you- a huge smile comes across my face with maybe even a little giggle. Your life literally lights up my life. You are full of energy and love for life keeps me going no matter what. Cam you keep us on our toes and makes me never settle. Thank you for being you & being that enthusiastic little 2 yr old. You make daddy being in Mexico not look so bad because you keep me and Caden entertained from your laughter, games, new words thought up in your head daily, singing, wonderful dane moves, to your fake tantrums with puffy lips. You always make me say :oh Cam Cam. Like today:

“Mommy, I got to have ‘boom boom’ now go there pweeeez” with those sweet cheeks and lips poked out
So, I say :oh Cam Cam” I will let you listen to music.

Finding Yourself Again

We all come to a stage in life where we are so busy tossing & juggling our lives and jobs that we lose ourselves in it for the most part. There are many fathers are so busy looking out for the well-being of the their entire family, fulfilling every need of their wife and kids that one day when they look in the mirror, they don’t recognize themselves. Dealing with many thing at the same time causes you to forget about yourself & what your wants needs are as man.
Women usually lose their identity and manage their family even though she too works equally hard in her job. But when she gets home, she changes her role instantly from the working woman to a cook, making dinner for the hole family, then teacher to check on her kids work, then a housekeeper to clean up from the whole day which can be a huge task I am sure. The things are endless and it is really difficult to prioritize because everything seems so important to make your life complete success.

It seems that people realize that they have lost themselves when they get older and the children have left for college or they are not home as much. Suddenly there is a void, and they don’t know how to live anymore or dont know how to get outside the box they are use to living in. Loneliness can be dreadful but in that moment its where you can dig deep & find who you really are without limitation & boundaries that surround us as being parents. Self motivation can be tricky but all it needs is determination. To find yourself again, Remembering that age should never a barrier. It becomes one if you make it. Engaging into different things or activities that you had missed out earlier would probably be a good start.

The answer lies inside all of us. It is just that we don’t reflect within & really face the issue instead we brush it under the rug & live the cycle of the thing you call life. Praying & self reflection really helps to bring out and tune with the innermost feelings. In the end, only you can live the life you always wanted, no one can do it for you.